So let me start off with the reason for why I am doing this. I learned earlier, that a friend of mine had made a slight attempt or move or whatever you want to call it, on my girlfriend a while ago. He had tried, not only to convince my girlfriend to cheat on me, but to cheat on his girlfriend too. Fortunately, my girlfriend rejected the attempt and got a little angry with him herself. From hearing about this, I learned some things about my relationship.
Let’s start with the bad, shall we? The bad news that I got out of this is that, I am not being told everything that is related to our relationship. I learned about all this today, when it apparently happened a few weeks ago. Not only that, but I had to ask about it, in a question about a generic tumblr picture caption my girlfriend made. I feel like I shouldn’t have to stalk my own girlfriend to figure out what is happening between us. I feel like it should be communicated directly between each of us. I mean, if some girl came up to me and made a serious enough move* on me, I would tell Jordan as soon as possible (*serious enough as to be considered cheating, girls will be girls and will flirt, nothing i can do about that, other than just let them casually know that im taken and not interested. i have no intention of ever cheating on anyone, much less Jordan). I’ve known this, actually, for a while, that she doesn’t tell me really what’s up. I have to go and do some investigating some times to figure out how she’s doing. I realize that I kay do that too, some times. I hope this something that we can both work on, together, as a couple, for the betterment of our relationship. Because I really do love Jordan, and I want nothing more than to have a happy, healthy, and enjoyable relationship with her for as long as possible.
Now for the good. The trust in out relationship. I am ecstatic to have been told that she DID reject the guy, and did not try anything. I am not AT ALL saying that Jordan would do that, or that I suspect she would. Not once has that crossed my mind. But, I am happy that she did not go along with him. Being in a distance (nonetheless a small distance) relationship, we both rely on our trust in eachother not to cross the other. Because, she technically could have gone along with it, not told me, and I would never be the wiser. She could, (I really want to emphasize that this is all VERY hypothetical, and not at all what I think she *would* do) go around and do all she wants with other guys and I could never know. But, I am beyond thankful she doesn’t. I have had many trust issues throughout my life. From being lied to and cheated on, to not being able to trust my own parents because of what they did to me physically. I have a lot of difficulty giving people my trust. I haven’t any valid reasons to, so many people abused it. Jordan has proved me wrong. With her, I have had this strong feeling and knowing that she is someone I can trust. And I would trust her with anything, except for maybe catching me from a ten foot fall (yay dry humor!). I am more than thankful for her, because she is so unbelievably amazing. She is the best thing that has happened, is happening, and (I hope) will continue to happen in my life. Let me end this with a cheesy/sappy little phrase: We put the “us” in Trust.
I love her.
